On the road again....

Life's been rough the last few months and I let the blog go because I didn't want to be blogging about personal issues that are private.  Tho....would have been nice to if I could figure out how to make this private, but then here I am back to the debate about is this a public blog to keep my family informed or is it a private journal?  Guess I'm seeing I need a private one to journal about so that things get our and put away.

Regardless....I'm moving ahead again.  Life happens, I need to keep looking for things that make me happy and live whatever time I have hoping for the best.

Ladies and Gentlemen.....let the grilling begin!

It's that time of year!  I have been debating about buying a grill for ages and finally decided that a Smokey Joe won't do.  With my luck, Cowboy will be way too enticed by the smells inside and decide to clean the grill for me when I'm not home, chewing it to bits due to its small size and being just his height.  The big 22 inch was a bit large, but JUST RIGHT is the 18.5 inch.

So....off to Target I go, grab the grill and a charcoal chimney, to Lowes to grab the charcoal keeper and some hardwood lump charcoal.  Home again, I gather the tools shown on the instruction sheet and haul the box in to my bedroom where I can IM for online help if I need it.  Well, it went together easily and actually remembering how to work my camera and upload pictures took longer than putting the grill together.  So.....here it is.  And.....to follow the advice of the first person I bragged to and showed this picture to.....no I WILL NOT be grilling in my bedroom.

Anyway on to the evening.  I stuffed two sheets of newspaper in the bottom of the chimney, loaded it with coal and lit the paper.  About 30 minutes later I dumped the coals and put the salmon and veggie kabobs on the grill.  I have a feeling I missed peak cooking time and perhaps it was more like 40 minutes of charcoal heating time because I lost heat and cooking pretty quick.  I need to not be distracted and maybe check the coals at 15 minutes.  I did have to finish dinner in the oven, but the grilled out taste was there, sans any lighter fluid taste.  I am going to keep trying this til I get it down.  Watch out Leander, we are out for grilling goddess of the town.

...spring has sprung...

Look what I found in my backyard under my bedroom windows.  I've got three rosebushes out there and they are FILLED with blooms.  I love being able to cut and bring them inside to appreciate.  I think that a cutting garden needs to be in the planning as well as my veggie garden.

Gardens.......that needs to be another post.  I have some ideas I want to get down...fencing, plants, flowers....excitement!

I'm out of that funk I was in, everyone is safe.  Birthdays are always so disappointing, you'd think I'd learn by now that there is no one (besides my sister) who is going to make it anything at all.  I need to just decide to do it myself.

Onward to the end.....

I'm 50 today.  This is the first and only birthday that has bothered me and it's bothering me a LOT.  Over half my life is gone.  Women in my family aren't long lived.  Mom lived to 62 and her mom was in her 50's.  I'm afraid that the longer dreams and things get put off, the more likely they are not to ever happen.  I may not have a lot of time left, I want some good in my life but seriously wonder if it will happen.

Alone at 50 with no one to share life's joys and burdens sucks the big times.   Yea, I'm in a crappy mood for this birthday.  Top it all off?  I don't think my kids will remember and they are all I have left.  Oh well.  Just another day....who cares. 

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No shushing allowed

Mention libraries and people automatically go into shush mode.  I'm sorry but libraries are changing and public libraries especially.  We have to change to stay relevant professionals.  Technology is taking over.  Cell phones are our number one method of communicating whether text or vocally.  I can not tell you how often library members need to access an account online and talk on their phone to the representative.  I have no problem with this.  Bring out the cell phones.  Bring your lunch or a drink (just not at the computers).

More important, libraries are becoming the center of the community.  Not just for information, but for hanging out and chatting, meeting up, playing games.  Talking requires a bit of noise.  I'm all for it.  I want to share information, laugh, have fun.  No more stereo types at my library about shushing librarians, or the librarian from the black lagoon.  We're not monsters.  Typically we're happy, a bit off kilter, goofy, people that like to laugh, love artists of all kinds, enjoy diversity and love to chat.  Come on, visit with us.....I promise, no shushing from THIS librarian.

AARP

I joined a few minutes ago.  I had a few minutes where I cried.  How can I be that old and where did my life go?  I feel 27 inside, wishing I could do so much of it over again and not be affected by what people thought or expected.  Still no clue why in the world we are here.  Guess it's just all a little piece of evolution.