Life is so full of bad news lately that I can hardly take it. Everyone has crap. Mine is health fears for my husband. My oldest just dealt with a former boyfriend stalking her to the point he is now in jail facing a felony charge, talk about fear and stress. Mom takes on the sheriff in a battle of words asking when they will take this seriously...when I plan a funeral? My youngest relapsing, again and disappearing. Fears that she's going to be homeless, and I need to shut off her phone and take car away because I'm enabling. Talk about rip a moms heart out.
I just can't take more. My tolerance is at an all time low. My caustic side is appearing and I don't like it. My husband is getting the fall out and that simply makes me cry because he does not deserve it, gentle soul that he is.
Quite simply, I'm sick of life. Grow up, take responsibility. Leave me the F-alone. I'd like some happiness and peace. My empathy is gone. Where is empathy for me? Is it any wonder I don't take care of myself? Here it is folks....ENOUGH. It is time for my health and needs to come first. This is the first time in 54 years, but I'm going to take a stand for once. I deserve happiness and peace. I do not have to answer the phone. If I want to disappear from texts, Facebook, the phone lines....I AM GOING TO. Most important? You will all survive and perhaps think. You don't need to call me and rain on my parade.
Ok my whine is over. Just remember, you have a choice.
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