2013 just went way too fast and I've personally been very aware of the new year looming.
The changes my life went through in 2013 had their roots in okcupid.com. I had signed up for an online dating site hoping to meet someone but seriously doubting I ever would. At the very end of 2012 I started chatting with Stacy Underwood....we had our first date on December 29 at the San Marcos Chili's and that started a ball rolling that hasn't stopped to this day. Honestly, I don't plan on it ever stopping, I foresee a beautiful future ahead.
2013 brought an end to many eras in my life. My tenure at the Liberty Hill Public Library was coming to an end, little did I know. Hard thing to do/deal with but to gain the man I love, very worth it. It honestly was time for me to move on, for both me and the library, we both had more growing to do.
The one and only house I'd purchased all by myself was sold in record time. 30 days from date of listing to date of handing over the keys.
I moved. Within Texas, but leaving my oldest daughter behind. I want my children to never be restrained feeling they need to be near me. I want them to fly their highest and reach their ultimate potential, following their dreams. I've watched Becca become a beautiful young lady that I'm very proud of this past year and I know I have treasured the one trip she has already taken down to visit me (surprise arranged between she and Stacy) and am looking forward to another hopefully before the year is out.
I'm learning happy, content, peace. I have a mate that is very honest with me that can talk frankly, watch me cry, and listen as my mind changes. Still hard to admit how much I screw up but I can do it and realize I do it and that I am wrong. He is the first man I've been able to be so vulnerable with. He loves me in spite and because of my flaws. We have a common goal, common pasts, and a desire to be positive, open to ideas, and live a healthy, upward lifestyle.
Not a bad spot to be at here at the end of 2013, looking 13 days forward to my one year anniversary of meeting Stacy face-to-face.
And now the future looms. I've moved into this almost 100 year old house that Stacy has owned for over 20 years and we are making it ours. New configuration for Stacy to live in (yes walls in different places etc) so it's new and ours and isn't holding past memories (I'm trusting him when he says this).
I'm in my element painting, configuring, fixing up. We went and bought our first big purchase together the other day....a king sized bed. Wednesday is delivery day and at this moment I've gotten a message from Stacy saying he's going to wash the sheets we've purchased for the bed so they are ready.
Now that we've made it happily through this whirlwind of three months....or almost have, I'm starting to look to the future. Not dwell and miss the now, but as in resolutions, which go through my head on a daily basis anyway. To really ensconse myself in these things that are so calming and good for me....mindfulness, meditation, gratitude. Living a life that is extremely healthy in all ways - emotionally, nutritionally and physically.
We have joined Golds Gym to work our bodies, keeping them so that we can live the best quality of life as long as we can and enjoy each other. Nutritionally , we need to go organic more and more for many reasons, mainly that the reality of Stacy's cancer ordeal is a constant reminder of what pesticides and non-organic can do. So.....composting, gardening, growing as much of our own as we can...including egg laying chickens. I also want to plant fruit trees.
Pursing classes in yoga, finding people that practice mindfulness and other zen traits. Reading about it. Living it with each other.
The future looks sunny and delightful. I have my partner by my side with similar goals and together we will pursue them, supporting each other along the way and I'm sure him dragging me along to keep up with him often. Peace is in my soul.
I love you my dear family and friends, people are all that matter, not things. Accepting that takes you a long way. Help me remember this and stay positive.
