Where I need to be....

Here we go again.......home owner issues.  A/C again.  Starting to really rethink owning a home.  Are the repair/replacement costs really worth the tax break?  When the girls are gone I'm starting to think I will live in a tiny apartment somewhere and get rid of the responsibility.  Not worth it.  I hate being a slave to my home.  I want to enjoy life and not worry constantly about a multi-thousand dollar A/C replacement, fence rebuilding.....I just can't afford the upkeep.  Big part of it is that my house is now 10 years old, so many of the things are needing replacement at this point.  The rest is that the kids are so hard on things.  The microwave handle is cracked....temper result.  Their bathroom has hair dye and burn marks on the sink vanity and on the door.  Doors with fist holes in them.  It all costs and not sure how it will get fixed to be able to sell it some day.  Just overwhelming.  I'm really starting to second guess this......on my own that is.  With someone it's easier.  Alone?  Sucks.

Where I'd rather be?  The beach more often.  Exploring Texas.  Having fun.

Rant/pity party done. 

Pancakes and booze in the future....

OK so I'm trying to get out and do things....see things, get my life back.  THIS is right up my alley.  Not that I am a fan of pancakes or booze, but it's very edgy....emerging artists display their work and create.  Bands plan.  Photos of past events held all around the US make me excited to be going.

Need more of this in my life....thank God I live in the Austin area, loads of great stuff....

Ch..ch...ch....changes.....

Tried on and off for years to lose weight, it truly does take a mindset, something clicking on in your brain to do it.  Well, and a pretty little pill called phentermine to jump start it. 

I'd gotten to my heaviest ever, dealing with being suddenly single, no health insurance, difficult to get due to borderline diabetes.  Unknown to me I had high blood pressure and high cholesterol as well.  Finally got insurance and doc wanted me working on weight.  Two years.....lose....excuses....finally he said enough, do it NOW and we are starting you with an appetite suppressant to get you moving.  That was start of March 2012.

One month and 20 pounds lighter, the motivation was great.  Still on lowest dose, I continued to lose.  It is now a full six months later, he still has me on a higher dosage to get the rest off....he gave me a goal of 10 more pounds to put me within my ideal weight range, a range I never thought I'd see again.  I"m three pounds into it, seven to go. 

Along the way.....shock, excitement, buy new clothes.  OOPS!  Everything I bought is too big one month later.  Not that I lost a lot during that month, five pounds, but it was like everything settled in and my body really started showing the change.  So....those size 10's that I just bought were too big.....out shopping again.  SHOCK!  Size 8 and 6 fit....depends on brand, cut.  Shirts?  Now having to buy a medium, the larges I just bought are hanging loose.

Today I'm feeling great, feel like ME again.  I have energy, I walk and feel like I'm trucking along at a fast clip, not gasping for air at all....probably could push it up even faster.  I no longer an on blood pressure medicine as my bp has maintained a respectable 118/80 for quite a while.  Cholesterol is inline with the exception of HDL's being a bit under the range they should be, the solution?  Increase exercise.  Weight lost to date?  43 pounds.  Size's lost?  Well, I started at a 14 or an XL woman's shirt, L in men's t-shirt.  Today I wear a 6/8 in pants, a medium in women's shirts and a medium in men's t-shirts.  My closet?  Rather empty and it will stay that way for a while as I continue losing the last few pounds and evaluate if I'm going to continue losing a bit more or what the status is. 

The biggest pay off?  Well besides the constant compliments on looking great, SHOPPING IS FUN!!!!  I've hated shopping for years because things didn't fit, I looked fat, whatever it may be.  But now the biggest challenge I face when shopping is of all the items I try on, of which 90 percent fit, what do I choose?  I've never had so many choices of things that fit.  It's nice being able to be picky.

I need to get whole body pics .... but I've been told the face shots are very evident that there was weight loss......yeeehawww!