...half full....half empty....deep sigh.....

.....been in a blah mood lately, not quite sure why.  had a wonderful vacation, but it did get long.  since i got back i'm not sure what it is that is hitting me, perhaps the whole wrap up the old year and ring in the new.  i'm not a huge resolution person.  i mean, i make them in a sense, but in a round about way.  i always feel the new year is a time of new beginnings so that is when i set my goals for the year, pick a "theme" for my year, something to move toward......

.....guess it's cause i just don't feel any direction right now that i'm kind of blah-ed out.  the tears seem to always be right at the edge and i'm not sure what is going to tip them over.  i don't think i was made to be alone.  i feel bad griping about it because i have friends who are alone and have been for years but it's something that i ache over.  i mean,  can do it just fine and have.  i just seem to be a better me with someone....someone to love, care for, sink into and disappear inside when it gets too much.  i want to be someone's priority.  i want to create a nest of coziness and love to hibernate in.....

.....two days left to work on budget and those goals for the new year and when they are done, the goals will appear here.....too many sighs lately.....